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I have a relentless desire to express the deepest thoughts of my soul but I rest unsure of the roots of their birth and thus, it is with hesitation to come to the page today. It isn't quite clear what I wish to say. A mix of deep emotions mix and melt around my very core, without a defined path to lead them. There lingers a fog that hides the true captions of my heart it seems. I sit in wonder and captivity of my own chaotic thoughts, hoping, trusting that something will eventually come out from beneath the grey that cloaks its very essence.


Hear my Prayer, O Lord.


There is a hush over my soul, a stillness over the land and a quietness that leaves your thoughts to fight through the humming of your mind. Let's then, just get into this.


Today marks the first day of her journey. A time for her; to discover what God wills for her; her purpose for at minimum the next 14 days. It marks a time for me, to begin on the journey of pure trust in our God and this will He has entitled her to.


12, 254 km between us seems nearly equivalent to eternity. This distance is merely an earthly factor however, as I know our hearts will be next to each other the whole time. She's excited she says. She holds God close to her and has trust in her heart that He will stay with her. I seemingly, have more doubt than she when it comes to trust. I am living with a nervous fear but it remains un-birthed as a consideration for her well being.


I try and imagine their faces with the joy and excitement of an outsider, a visitor amongst them. I imagine that Jesus will be there, looking through those same eyes, watching her every move, seeing how she looks back at Him. She will without a doubt look into the eyes and soul of Christ during the next two weeks of her life. But, not only will she see Him, but He will be seen. He will be everywhere, in every gesture, in every gift, showing His compassion and mercy, over and over and over.


This will be a challenge in one way, for I to live my daily routine, knowing that she is so far away. She holds a permanent portion of my soul as my sister. I will not rest fully until she returns. God bless her, and a multitude of prayers, miracles and mercies be with her during this most incredible trip to Kolkata, India.


All my love to my sister.
xxoo (e-hugs dude)